I am happy

If I stop myself and ask, “are you happy?”, surprisingly the answer is yes.

I think it has been a long time since I could truly say that. It is such an awesome feeling.

Moments

Today, I’m quite proud of myself.

I went to the wrong LRT station this morning so I had to take an extra train, was late to my facial appointment cos I had a hard time locating the place, got lost after the facial and couldn’t find my way out of the building, had trouble finding my car after, took a wrong exit and had to make a big detour, had to rush to yoga when I thought I was gonna be early and now I’m finally home, so exhausted I feel like closing my eyes and falling asleep in my sweaty gym attire.

If this was my day a few years or even months ago, I think I would’ve screamed, complained, threw a tantrum and ask why life is so cruel. Today, I was calm and smiled my way through almost the entire day.

I’m actually pretty sad about a lot of different things, but somehow I’m having this superbly positive outlook for life in general. I’m amazed at myself and am feeling rather proud.

I’m (almost) all grown up!

After the prologue : Chapter One

Today is the official first day that I am on my own.

I had this silly grin on my face as I was driving earlier. How the hell did this happen?

The last two weeks had been crazy. I had wanted to freelance but then a potential client told me that she needed me to send her a quotation from a registered company as her company does not hire freelancers.

So, I registered as a sole trader. And I named it Myris Consultancy. The name came from Iris, the Greek messenger goddess. The reason I chose it is because I felt as if what we digital marketers do is essentially being a messenger for our client. We deliver their message to their consumer through digital channels. And well, MY are my initials. Hence Myris

That decision was made over two days. In two days I decided, and went ahead, to register a business. I did not see this coming at all, but I gotta say, I’m loving how everything is falling into place.

I feel lighter, more carefree and more optimistic about everything.

I can’t say I have any complaints right now. I wanted to be on my own by the age of 25. Two months ago, I didn’t think it was possible. But two weeks ago, I played around with the thought. Two days ago, I registered a business. Today, I finalised two meetings.

And tomorrow, will be another great day

Rather fly

I’m really happy right at this moment. Good things are happening and I wanna savour the moment. They say if I feel good, I will attract good things with my positive vibrations. So I shall continue to feel good ;p

Melbourne November 2011

So now there’s a new plan. Melbourne with Jon and Farah in November for some beach fun and hot guys oogling.

Sounds like a plan indeed.

Change of plans

One of my 2011 New Year’s resolutions is to visit Paris. I’m still going (I hope) but it would not be how I imagined it originally.

I was also pretty happy with work. The new company I joined end of last year seems to be what I was looking for. Great job scopes, great colleagues, great clients list. But opportunities for me were limited, and I find myself  on the lookout for something fresh just seven months down the road.

Oddly though, something fresh turns out to be freelancing. It happened through a series of non-related events and now I’ve taken my first step into the unknown. Didn’t see it coming so fast, but hey, no one’s complaining.

I have always wanted to jump back into the fashion industry and create my own fashion line one day and I still want that, but I found a facial sheet mask brand that I thought was fabulous and I see potential in selling that instead so I created www.lumineuse.me. Didn’t see that one coming either.

I wanted to kill this blog and turn to a more professional one with industry related posts and look where I am now, at 2:30am in the morning. Whenever I feel troubled, I need an outlet. Vera-Ikon is my outlet.

A lot of things have changed in a span of just a few months. If you told me a few months ago that my Paris trip would not materialise I would tell you that I was certain it would. If you told me a few months ago that I would quit my job and do this on my own, I would laugh and say ‘No f**king way’. If you told me a few months ago that I would sign up with a gym, I would probably say ‘Do I look like I need to go to the gym?’ :p  If you told me a few months ago that I’d be selling facial sheet masks online, I would probably say ‘I’m not interested in beauty products’.

Well, I guess sometimes (as someone told me) life’s a funny one

Re: writing

I think I have to start writing again. It’s the only way that will keep me sane I suppose. Besides I feel like my writing is deteriorating yet again. Words come harder sometimes even when I’m speaking. Sometimes the word is just right at the tip of my tongue but it won’t materialise and I’m left gawking like a fool thinking of what it is that I wanted to say. Earlier tonight the word I lost was ‘soft drinks’. Last Sunday I couldn’t spit out the word familiar. It’s such a shame. I used to have so much to say. Now, sometimes, I just feel tired of talking.

Life has actually been treating me pretty kind. I’ve found a little bit of footing and restored some faith in myself that I lost along the way. It’s tough when people don’t believe in you but it’s tougher when you don’t believe in yourself.

I can now see the silver lining that Suaran spoke of many years ago when I thought my life as I knew it would end. He was right. I just have to be patient. Life tends to surprise you when you least expect it.

I’m having a hard time understanding a few things though and try as I might I could not find the answer. I don’t think there is an answer and that bothers me. Because I won’t be able to solve it. I can only sit on the sideline and watch.

Today I wondered ‘why am I here?’

I have no answer to that too.

I just have to believe that everything happens for a reason and I will know the reason one day when the time is right. That, I shall have faith for.